Tuesday, December 8, the St. Mary’s Dominican High School Community came together at Mass to celebrate the Feast of the Immaculate Conception, including 18 alumnae from the classes of 1970 – 1979.
Student Preacher Sarah Trumbaturi delivered a beautiful, thought-provoking reflection on the Immaculate Conception.
In the book of Deuteronomy we read this phrase….“For the Lord your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God” . And in the first reading, God asks Adam, “Where are you?” God has just created the entire world and everything in it, and even so, God, who is perfect, all powerful, and all knowing, is jealous for Adam. God is jealous for all of us. It is unfathomable that God cares for us so much that he is brought to jealousy when we turn away from him, but He just wants nothing more than to embrace us in his love. So today, I ask you, where are you?
Sometimes it seems impossible to find Him, but the truth is God hasn’t gone anywhere and never will. He’s always looking for us, always seeking us out. He is our all-powerful ever knowing God, and he looks for us. Before the earth was even created, God chose us to be beloved. He could have chosen anything, but he chose you and me.
Like us, Mary was chosen. God told her not to fear, because everything was going to be okay. God has the perfect plan for all of us, and even if we can’t always see it, He is working unceasingly in our lives building us into the people we are meant to be. There are so many times when life presents us with challenges, and we question whether or not we can handle it. We fear we are not strong enough or brave enough or pretty enough.
We let our insecurities overcome our faith, and assume that God is nowhere to be found and we are completely alone. I imagine Mary was terrified for what was to come, because the unknown is scary, but she didn’t let that fear cripple her. She used her fear to be the perfect vessel to bring the Son of God into the world. Mary let God have control and trusted his will for her, and we are capable of doing the same thing. I think that everything would be a lot easier if we were able to put everything aside and let God ultimately lead us. God knows exactly what he is doing, but still we find it so hard to give up control.
God wants to give us all of his love, so we should not shy away from it. Even though we so desperately want to be in control, we need to somehow find a way to submit to God’s love and let him take care of us instead of hiding from Him.
I’m tired of hiding from God, and I am constantly challenging myself to give everything to our Lord. It’s scary, but I know it’ll be worth it. I try to find comfort in the idea that I don’t have to worry too much, because God has it under control. So in times that I feel like I am absolutely alone, I remind myself that the Holy Spirit is right by my side and will never leave me. God knows where I am even when I do not. If I feel like I am wandering through life, I am never lost. God only asks us where we are in order to guide us back when He sees that we are hurting and falling away.
It is a beautiful life we live, but it sure isn’t an easy one. When we feel like everything is going wrong, we should look to Mary as a role model of strength and grace, and offer all that we have up to God. We are never alone, and we are never without God’s love. His love makes us beautiful. His love makes us who we are.
Every day we wake up and have the choice of how we want to carry out the day. We are given every tool, and it is up to us to use them. Sure sometimes it seems easier to hide from God like Adam did and pretend like we have our lives under control; but in reality, our true happiness will only come when we remove our masks and put ourselves before Christ. You cannot grow if you are hiding, so again I ask, where are you?
Sarah Trumbaturi ’16
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